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I am Too Scared to I Love You

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“I am too scared to love you,” I said as I got out of the bed. He had a smile that he usually does not put on his face. It was kind of obvious. A relationship that starts and ends with the bed has nothing to do with love and bringing up this topic was awkward, for both of us. My eyes were fixed at him and I constantly tried figuring out his expression when he finally broke the silence. “What do you mean by that?” I knew this was coming. I don’t know if this was a genuine question or he just wanted to know my real feelings. “Well, I cannot love someone who won’t love me back. That’s painful, isn’t it? I would keep on spending nights thinking of you and all I get in return is, nothing. I can’t do this to myself.” I finished hoping that what I said was convincing. The heat in the room was increasing and my heart was almost in my mouth. But probably he wanted to have more of it. “You think I will never love you back?” he raised his eyebrows as he asked me this weird question; and now it …

There He is, Falling again and Repeating The Sin

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There He is, Falling again and Repeating The Sin. Everything goes fine and smooth but with every maze he creates a riddle which is impossible to break. He is often found lost and sometimes the void devour him.He is often found living a life full of joy and then again and again repeating the same sin all over again.
As time flies he changes, he evolves from a worm to a cocoon and finally into a butterfly but then again he is witnessed around the flowers gathering nectar(experience). Life is often tough for him, he always had to sacrifice from an early age of time. He doesn't mind giving away his candy/ice-cream to his siblings or cousins. He's been taught that he has responsibilities and he has to take all the loads of his family and of the so called "future".

Struggle? Reality? Ask someone who has to face all these. Only a support can motivate him. Only a little blessings of his parents can give him hope. Only a little support from a girl he loves can show him the …

I understand. I Just Want You to Always be Happy

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I understand. I just want you to always be happy: There was a blind girl who was filled with animosity and despised the world. Her hatred towards the world lead her to not make many friends; just a boyfriend who loved her deeply. She always said she'd marry him if she were to ever see him.

One day, suddenly someone had donated her a pair of eyes and it had been the first time that she had gotten to see her boyfriend. She was astonished to see that her boyfriend who had loved her immensely, who had called her the prettiest woman in this universe, had been was blind himself.

He had then told her, "You can see me now so can we get married?" She replied looking startled, “And do what? We'd never be happy. I finally have sight like every other average person but you're just a blind, dumb guy. It won't work out, I'm sorry." Tears came rolling from his eyes as heavy as the current flowing through the Niagara Falls and a forced smile was on his now wretched…

I Was Born to Respect Myself and Earn Respect from People

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I Was Born to Respect Myself and Earn Respect from People: "I was not born and not raised to listen to words which I don't deserve, I was not born to just get married young or love someone specifically, I was not born to stay quiet all the time and listen to outsiders who will never matter to me in the long run. I was not born to listen to my past mistakes from a person all the time.

I was born to love myself and treat myself better, I was born to say "NO" to a person and stick to my own life in my beautiful corner of my room. I was born to love my parents and brother who mean the world to me. I was born to teat myself in the best restaurant and cherish good memories by travelling. I was born to educate myself for my future betterment. I was born to earn better so that I can full fill my "শখের জিনিস"! I was born to respect myself and earn respect from people.

That's it all I want now for myself."

- Sadia Raisa

Photo by Seanen Middleton Photograph…

I Love You Foreve and Always

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I Love You Foreve and Always:  I’m generally a cheerful person. I’m usually full of love, life, and happiness. I open my eyes in the morning and feel excited to be alive.
There came a time, when it wasn’t so easy; when blinking, breathing and speaking all took so much effort that I thought I might as well give up. I was in a dark hole of sadness, anger and confusion. I didn’t think that I was going to make it, but you did. I still feel quite the same now and you still believe that I can!

For the friends who stood and still are standing by my side through the storms and I still have their back, the ones who held my hand and never let as much as a finger untie from our grip, the people who could see through my darkness when I was not being able to. For the beautiful souls who believed in transformation and never stopped believing still now, who believed in healing, time and growth. Who never judged me nor even now for my heartache, grief and anguish.

Who, when my world (my own bubbles …

To The Person, A Twinkling Star Now

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To The Person, A Twinkling Star Now:
The glimpse of your heavenly face twinkles my mind in every single day.

They say that time heals everything. Yes, it does and now all I'm left with is your memories. You were and still are one of the most amazing soul in my eyes. Even after bearing a lot of pain, you never had any complaint about life.
One thing I badly regret is that, I couldn't spend much time of my life with you due to the vast distance between the places where we lived.
Sometimes I question myself Why did I even grow up? I could have known you better if I had utilized my time in meeting you rather than going to other places for vacations.

You always had that special charm in you. Except you, none could make me laugh and cry at the same moment. It's you from whom I have learnt a lot more about those unspoken truths that no one would ever tell me about.
Hugging you right after a tiring day and watching you fall asleep are those little things that I miss mostly e…

The Picture Held So Many Memories Itself

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The Picture Held So Many Memories Itself: It was about this Saturday night, with some relaxation and leisure time in hand I decided to sort out my box of books that I no longer take care of. One by one I sorted them and placed them on the shelf when suddenly something caught my eyes...upon grabbing it, only silent tears flowed down my cheeks. The picture held so many memories itself...dragging me down to the memory lane that I left behind almost a year ago. It was not only a picture for me but something so much more, much dearer and precious...Something that once meant everything to me or maybe still does. Who knows...How did time fly this fast? I could feel my heart ache! Sounds cheesy doesn't it? 1st love, 1st heartbreak...sigh! Only the ones who endure the pain know how it feels like to live with the pain enclosed inside.

An old picture causes so much of adrenaline rush, so many flashbacks that I overlooked over the years...How we spent those times together and cherished every …

Latter from The Friend You Abandoned

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Dear stranger,
Today I'm about to uncover a secret that only resides in your heart and tortures your soul. I know you didn't love him truly. To tell you the truth, you just didn't want to be alone. Hence you chose the only person who was available.

You could have waited but you chose not to. He was good for your ego and you used him just like an alluring piece of shiny trophy. You chose him only to show off. You didn't mean to treat him like the treasure he was. He was a good guy who would do anything for you. Whereas you used him like an object only with the intention of playing with his feelings.

He made you feel better about your miserable life that consisted of solitude and defeating silence. However the cracks that manifested in the middle of your heart could not be healed by him.
Even though you pretended to be genuinely happy infront of others, deep down you knew you were isolated. You knew you were not only betraying yourself but you were also risking someone…

Teenagers are Currently Suffering From a Lot of Diseases

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Teenagers are currently suffering from a lot of diseases: They suffer from a lack of parent's attention. These days the lifestyle of teens are apparently leading them towards astray, and the prime reason for this is less attention. Parents are running with time to design the future of their kids, however they are not aware of this major fact that they don't spend adequate tine to monitor their kids.

Also, the lack of council. Teens are the modern civilization of this world. Apart from their studies and daily dairies, few have some obscure issues to deal with. Parents should be friendly to their kids and they should try their level best to absorb the thoughts of their children too. Not all faces are same, thus all kids are not same. Some should be handled carefully. Parents should build their thinking and make them eligible, to identify what's right and what's not. Punishment is not always the solution.

Also, then there is distance from family. There was a time when sib…

The Long Loved Game, Basketball

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Emotive Stories: The Long Loved Game, Basketball:  You know those days of springtide when we were all industrious and spirited? The days where we got easily induced and valiant about anything new we discovered? When I was 14, there were these Japanese caricature called "Anime" which were tremendously prevailing and almost everyone was obsessed with watching them. Spontaneously, so was I and I don't anguish it at all.

Talking about getting induced and valiant, I was a guy who loved sports more than anything and this anime called " Kuroko no Basuke " which is interpreted as " Kuroko's Basketball " in English, which conducted to an immense contraction in my life. Comical right? Yeah I know it is. How can someone be influenced with some petty cartoon? Even I don't know, but I was.

I still remember I used to play football with my friends on that minuscule rooftop, which apperantly had a hoop installed. My seniors were more into basketball and thos…

I Wish Someone Could Know Me

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Emotive Stories: I Wish Someone Could Know Me: 

Hello,
Yes, I am that girl;
That girl who always smiles,
That girl who always hides,
That girl who always cries to sleep.

To everyone, I am a happy and gleeful girl.
But do you even know me?

I am alone.
Alone in a world full of people,
Alone in the darkness of my mind.

Friends?
That's a treasure;
The rarest treasure.
Yes, I have,
The ones who wished I didn't exist.

"Do you even care for your future?"
"You don't even try."
These are some of the most common words I hear everyday.

I am still smiling,
I have to.

Wiping those tears,
Stretching my mouth to smile,
Do you even know how that feels?
Do you even know me?

Words hurt,
More than actions.
Every time it feels like an arrow pierced through my heart.

It hurts.
It hurts that no one will know this pain,
It hurts that this will die with me.

Still I am, Alone
In my room, Crying.

Do you know what I really wished?
I wish someone could know me

- Sadia Tasnim Prott…

I Need You

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I Need You:
I remember what I used to be,
A lost soul that just couldn’t see.

I drowned in my own misery,
But then you pulled me out and I became free.

Now I’m always keeping an eye on my prayers, and
Staying with friends that remind me of greater.

Working on goals that will benefit me later
And keeping my eyes away from all strangers.

When one day I am gone,
And life will carry on,
I pray you bring me close to you,
Cause that's all I ever needed from you.

- Zunaid Amin Enan


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The Conscience of A Man Who Has Nothing Left to Lose

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The Conscience of A Man Who Has Nothing Left to Lose: The heavy cumulonimbus cloud roared overhead as he kept walking aimlessly by the beach, wondering about all the blunders he made in his little life. He couldn't change anything now. He could only hear his conscience speaking to him.

So here we are at last, this is what has become of us, what we have been reduced to. The future, once so clear to me, is now like a dark desolate highway at night. To whom it may concern, the sole purpose of me revealing what I had once deemed correct to conceal forever, is so that not another living soul makes the grave mistakes that reeked of impending disaster upon whom I was going to guide to the right path.

The beginning, ah the beginning! Like the struggles of many greats before, you were so typical. A hard working individual, whom life treated with misfortune, yet you did not abandon your dreams, yet she and the life you two created together, stood beside you. However, one day it happened; …

Do Forgive Him If You Can: An Open Letter to HER

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Do Forgive Him If You Can: An Open Letter to HER,

Hey, it's me. The guy who always tries to put up a smile on everyone's face despite his own sadness. You see him laughing, doing weird things and all, always making you laugh. But do you know why he does that? I guess not.

Let me tell you why. He does that so that no one knows he's sad. He does that so that no one else pities him and feels unhappy for him. It's not like he always does good stuff: he does make mistakes, some too pricey but at the same time he also accepts his fault and seeks forgiveness. His jolly spirit is his mask to the darkness within him. The only light in his life is his love but he made her feel insecure. He regrets it now more than anything. He tries not to anger or make her sad even if he is having a horrible time dealing with his own problems.

Sometimes his humour tends to offend people even though such was not his intention. He has suffered a lot. He goes through hell every day and every nigh…

Hope Amidst Darkness

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Hope Admist Darkness: He stared at the reflection in front of him with pure disgust. His face was bloody and his clothes were torn. He was 'black'. His arms were filled with brutal reminders of how he was tortured. Tears escaped from his eyes and he stared at them with such fascination, wishing to be as free as those teardrops.

He looked down at his hands, chained to the floor a few feet away from him. Flashbacks occupied his fragile 10 year old mind, of people treating him like garbage, like he was a disgrace to the society. People hit him whenever they wanted to, reminding him he had no right in this world, he was a slave, he was 'black'.

Rage filled him from within. He screamed, pulled at the chains, slapped his face and wiped it vigorously as if trying to remove the color. But as usual, he gave up knowing nothing would change.

He looked down at his hands in defeat, filled with blood. What difference was there in him? To him everyone was the same, everyone had b…

I wish it was true That you want me, as much as I do

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I wish it was true- That you want me, as much as I do:  I wish, you wanted to dance in the rain with me. I wish, it was me, that you would have looked at and laughed when a common friend of ours cracked a lame joke. I wish, that you would wish to skip the long, boring office hours just to be with me at home. I wish, you would daydream about me when you're stuck in the traffic. I wish, you would want me to wear that particular red saree and meet you by the lake. I wish, you would wish to hold my waist and kiss me on the rooftop as it rains. I wish, it'd have been me you wanted to make babies with, grow a family with. I wish, you would want to grow old with me and be happy with those wrinkles. I wish, you did not feel embarrassed to hold my hand and walk in front of all your friends. I wish, you would want to watch the whole season of "Prison Break" again, with me by your side. I wish, you would want to take me to your mother and ask her how your choice was. I wish, yo…

An Open Letter to Old Me

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Dear Thirteen Years Old Me,Full spoiler alert in effect for this letter, so if you don’t want to know, don’t read (however knowing/being you, I know you will continue reading anyway).
I know. I know. I was there. It’s like you don’t fit in and you’re this weird kid that everyone knows since nursery and pretends to like. You’re sitting in maths class, staring down at the sheet of paper
in front of you. None of it makes sense. You feel like everyone is getting it except you. Eventually you give up, flipping the paper over and marking it with angry dark words. Teen poetry. I still have some of it, you know. I keep them in a box under my bed. Sometimes I look at them and remember what you’re feeling now. Sometimes I smile and roll my eyes. But I’m going to tell you something and I want you to pay attention.
You are not stupid. It isn’t going to get any better, unfortunately. You never do figure out maths. Even though you had a maths tutor it didn’t make much difference. You weren’t made for…

Have You Ever Felt Like You Don't Belong Anywhere?

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Have You Ever Felt Like You Don't Belong Anywhere?


Have you ever felt like you don't belong anywhere? Like the world around you keeps spinning but it's spinning without you?I have. And I will give anything to have that feeling of belonging, a purpose for my life. Not fitting in anywhere, not being able to cope, not having anyone to connect with until you start pretending like someone else. Where is my place in this big world filled with big people with big hopes and dreams? Where is my home?
Am I not being grateful for what I have? Is it enough? Am I asking for too much?
Can you tell me where can I go to feel like I'm home? Can you tell me how?

- Samia Binte Kabir

Photo by Louise Mertens.


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As Long as They Were Together, They were Perfect for each other

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As Long as They Were Together, They were Perfect for each other: When Joanne said her parents would never accept their love, Robert had lost all hopes. He had never anticipated such an incident could ever happen to him.


He was educated, employed and from a good family. Yet he was about to face the greatest trial of his adult life - being the perfect guy for her parents. He realized, he had to change. And he was not alone. Joanne, despite of wanting to end it on their second month of dating, never really left. Robert told her, to believe. That it will change. And if they stayed together, things could be all right. And Joanne had been the beacon of hope ever since. They worked hard. Together. She helped him to lose weight. Prepare for a better job and good grades in his post grads. He supported her through her exam weeks and family problems and all the social pressures she had to go through every single day. There were days where none of them could help each other. There were nights whe…

The Cosmos of My Heart

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The Cosmos of My Heart:  All day, all night I think of you, I dream of you. The sun rises and sets but the thought of you never fades. 

My feelings are such as the nothingness of a raindrop falling on a leaf, a little beautiful, clear drop of water that makes my heart melt with it's tenderness. That is how my love is for you. It's as clear as that transparent drop of water. It's as soothing as water flowing downstream or a baby's first smile to it's mother. This love is as deep and strong as the neurons firing in our brain. Nothing can break it or mold it, but what they can do is stare in awe at it's wonderful existence. But sadly the struggle behind it's existence will be known by none except the 'one'. So my case lies with him and I pray and hope that the hearing is over soon with the ruling in my favour.

-Anonymous.

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